The home-care baby nurse has offered to put my name forward for a position in the crazy house. They have places for ladies who have had babies that don't sleep. My problem is that it is not just the baby that is not sleeping, but me too. I am increasingly finding myself awake when I should not be. Repeats of the 'Love Boat' simply are not that scintillating. But tell that to my 3am brain.
I am loathe to take the nuthouse position as I do not want a record of my being bananas. This could be used against me in any capacity at anytime.
Does this train of thought put the baby at risk? Only if I collapse from exhaustion whilst holding her I say. So for the next few weeks, I will dress CupCake in a Sumo suit. Better safe than sorry!
Ah lady, that sucks. When I was having a hard time last year, I learnt a meditation method called 'Vedic meditation'. It is essentially the expensive form of transcendental meditation which is taught in Adelaide. But it's something you could figure out without guidance if need be.
ReplyDeleteWhen I was taking the course, the teacher said that meditating (five mins, two mins, whatever you got) all throughout the day when you've had a baby is really very good for you. I know it's hokey, but you might find it brings you some peace.
I think you can do sans mantra. Tap a crystal glass, close yours eyes as it rings, and then continue to hear the ring in your mind as it fades.
Those buddhist bowls and anything else which will give you a pitch will work. Don't worry about clearing your mind, just go back to the sound, when you can.
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I know a few mums who spent time in Torrens House and had positive experiences, for what it's worth. Took me months before I could sleep through the night again (even though R was sleeping well). Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteIf I have another night like Thursday, I'll check myself in!
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